Skin Itches- its Not a Rash but I Need Medicine

my mind is whirling.

seriously feeling out of control.

a roller coaster without a stop switch.

a one way ticket to on and on.

for all those years i let it ride

now its catching up to me.

i can't stop.

i can't stand still.

i can't sleep at peace.

i can hardly breathe.

i want to do so much.

but time seems so short.

my heart too big

my brain so full

my pocket so thin.

some one-- please help me

off this thing.

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